England

Citizen

Dear fellow humans,

During the COVID-19 pandemic, I have felt at times sad, lonely and depressed, but overall I think that in many ways the time of isolation has been useful. Being alone teaches you to enjoy your own company, and when you do talk to others online you get to know a different side of them. Also, being alone and without as much to do, it is beneficial because it allows us to find time to look after ourselves.

Please make use of this time and be grateful. The future children of our world will not be presented with this solitary time, but they will learn about it. It is part of this world's history.

Take care of yourself.

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oregon

Citizen

I am a junior in highschool living on the west coast. My experience during quarantine was exhausting. I was so happy when I first heard we were getting 2 weeks off of school. Until everything was closing down and the world was just going insane. Being stuck in the house all day just drained my mental health throughout the months and months and I just started losing myself. It felt like. I started to find myself just staying in bed all day, not cleaning my room, and not doing my school work. I just felt stuck. My advice on this situation is just have hope you aren’t alone even though it feels like finding a new hobby, do the things you love with the people you love, talk about how you feel! Life is hard but it will get better don’t give up on yourself at hard times. You are all you got.

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usa

Citizen

Covid… it just sucks. Although lockdown has been not so bad for me. I stayed working throughout the entire time, I still saw my friends after it was a bit safer to go out. Before you yell at me for leaving the house during lockdown just note I'm fully vaccinated and never have had it or been in contact with someone who has. Throughout lockdown my life did change a lot, i have a whole new personality, i just like to say i found myself. School kind of sucked, I hated doing online school. I'm so grateful to be back in a building and around people again. Masks or not, I'm glad things are back to normal.

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america

Essential Worker

I am a 16 year old student of the coolest highschool, wearing a mask in class n thinkin what I might do. to write this essay but my mind is pretty messy i put it in a rhyme because my teacher lets me. Thinkin bout the pandemic the stress is never ending but i still seem to push thru with every single second, because im human my dream im steady pursuing, learned much over the years i thought where ruined but as i look back i realize i compact, years of knowledge n wisdom in two quick acts, cause see i, now know there's more then what they show, humans are my then flesh n thats what i propose, we got the power to change, but these habits keep us chained, distractions got me actin in wonderis weird ways. Advice id give to those goin thru what i did, is keep your head up no matter how bad it might get, sometimes it feels so lonely like noone knows me, embrace the silence create a better new me. Thats all i got to say the new year is on its way give thanks to those who made it easier day by day.

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US

Citizen

I'm a 16 year old girl. I live in Oregon, and I'm in highschool. The pandemic was horrible. My experience was staying home and babysitting alone all day long. A lot happened during the pandemic. I just hated it. My advice is to not babysit your little sister during a pandemic for 9-10 hours a day. Also drop out of school so you don't have to do school during a pandemic. Online sucks but if you fight you'll get through it. Overall covid sucks and ruins a lot for a lot of people, bye.

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oregon

Citizen

I am a highschool student in Oregon, I'm on track to graduate a year early. I do mma and train at an amazing gym. I hope one day to be in the ufc. My experience with the pandemic was off. It felt as if I had no one. The pandemic brought me a lot of bad things and also good things. It was hard and boring. I hated it but there were times when I didn't. To all the people who are having hard times or think the pain won't stop. It will stop one day. You'll find your way out of the darkness soo. I promise you all that, you guys will all find light. I hope everyone gets through this, stay safe everyone.

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US

Citizen

I’m a junior in highschool in Oregon, and an older and younger brother also. I am one of those teens that struggles with school due to the fact that I literally hate it and my ADHD always has me wandering off somewhere in “ LaLa Land” or I’m just off task in general. On top of that we have a school and at home life but we have to live it through a pandemic , and always have to have a mask on, but I got used to it really.

My experience through the pandemic wasn’t really too good, when COVID-19 first hit i had just got suspended from school for a fight and wasn’t really looking forward to going back to school anyways and then i heard that the pandemic shut down the schools and that we wouldn't be going and i was kind of happy, but the part i was soon to find out was even worse, we had to do work online and im not a technology/computer geek so i chose not to do any work and i fell behind. I kept getting bored in the house and leaving and I wasn’t making good decisions and long story short i was in detention for most of the pandemic, i finally got out and came home still to the pandemic, school is still the same , i still hate it but i think it’s getting a little better and i'm glad to be back out free and making better decisions in life.

If there was any advice I would give anybody my age it would be to make smart decisions because your actions will always catch up to you. And for the pandemic part, i don’t like it just as much as anybody else, but at least you’re still alive and not everything is shut down anymore. Also life gets hard but don't ever give up because hard work pays off and if I’m being honest, this life shit is a job. And also yes school gets hard and you want to quit but education is very much needed.

Moral of what I’m saying is just keep pushing and make right decisions for a better outcome in life.

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United States

Citizen

Hello, I am a high school student in the United States. When the pandemic hit it didn’t seem like a big deal at the time, I remember thinking not much would change from it. I never thought it would be something that has lasted the past 2 years and continues today. After some time I started feeling bored inside and being with my family all the time had its challenges too. It felt like “normal life” had been completely flipped upside down. Doing school online, staying in my house, missing out on seeing friends and family were all new challenges I had never faced. After some time of adjusting and finding new ways to enjoy things I loved while staying safe got me through it and being with my family all the time became something I miss now that I'm back in school and out more. The pandemic hit everyone hard, in different ways, and everyone had their own set of challenges. Finding ways to adapt, starting a new hobby, or spending time on myself, were all great things that came out of the pandemic for me. Taking a hard experience and finding a way to overcome it or change it into something good is something I took away from the pandemic. Going forward finding the good in a bad situation and figuring out what I can do with something hard to make it better is what I learned from this whole experience. So just remember even with hard experiences and change there always is something you can take from it and with time it can get better.

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United States

Citizen

Dear world

During the pandemic, I had a lot of free time even with school started up it didn’t take much of my day up, me being an irresponsible person and avid procrastinator did absolutely nothing, I stayed home and sat all day long, I would eat absurd amounts on a daily basis, with little to no physical activity, I smoked, sometimes drinking out with friends, not showing up to work, or showing up under the influence. just waiting for a disaster, for time to pass. I had just gotten out of a relationship and was in a bad state. I got to the point where I hated myself (which may or may not be a feeling everyone has experienced), I dropped most of my friends and I’ve never really had much family around, no one to show me what I was doing wrong. I even got arrested during this phase, a felony in fact for an assault charge. The felony thankfully was dropped because I pleaded guilty. because I was a minor I was able to clear my record. also because I was on good terms with the victim after the incident. I apologized and agreed to better myself, whether it was for me, or those around me. It was around that time when I really started to understand that I need a direction, a passion, so I sat down, wrote down every flaw I had, everything I hated about myself, and being realistic I worked on these flaws day by day, I quit drinking, I went down to the local gym and signed up, Working on everything physical, and a good chunk mental, I improved my relationships with friends, and work. I started eating better, got myself in the food is fuel mindset, I found a good group of friends to surround myself with, and I started to care… the feeling of realizing you have a purpose, and the world is there for you to conquer and to be your best, the realization of the importance of self-care. The importance of empathy, is the greatest feeling, the biggest rush of euphoria. About 2 years ago that took place, I’m a junior now and I have plans to graduate(i know I’m young) next year and am on track to do so. And to think I’m still only just starting… Now I’m currently sitting at 190lbs and leaner, I’m in better health, I can manage myself and my schedule, and I have a good work ethic and a strive to learn and grow, in every possible aspect I can, socially, financially, and educationally. I have dreams that I want to pursue in culinary arts, doing construction and auto-mechanics on the side as a trade. All of this is because I asked myself who do I want to be? Who do I want to be to others around me? And it was hard, it took a lot of willpower, good discipline to and I wish to aid others on their journey as well, and writing about this makes me feel narcissistic but my end goal is for everyone around me to thrive, even if that requires selfish acts, but I will say I think the greatest tool I had to my use was open-mindedness, You don't have to learn other peoples ways, or adopt them, but listen to them, know how things can be looked at in many different ways, understand you aren’t perfect and you can be wrong, but that doesn't mean you shouldn’t try to be your best version, take what you do wrong and learn from it. My biggest piece of advice, Patience, stuff takes time and sometimes you’ll find a shortcut, keep on the same path don’t take it, you will learn more, and in the end, it will be worth it (unless it is the logical thing to do, be smart about it too). The mind is an ever-expanding universe, always able to develop and take in, new info, emotions, perspective, thoughts, etc. even when I’m 50 and think I am wise and adjusted, ill still be learning, maybe even more. Anyways my covid experience was an overall 5/10, I grew a lot as a person and I hope this story was somewhat interesting, I find them interesting; learning about people that is. But I hope if you are reading this, you have a great day and always keep striving.

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USA

Citizen

Hey there, whoever is reading this. I’m a person obsessed with certain things and currently in class. I know, vague right? That’s the point. I’ll give you two details about me though. I love Criminal Minds, and I live in Oregon. Cue the “what is Oregon?” conversation. It’s where Twilight was filmed. But anyways, I hope you’re reading this and feel safe, comforted and connected to. You’re not alone.

COVID-19 has us in a death grip and will not let us go. It’s taking away our experiences, our loved ones, our jobs. Personally, I’ve missed a whole year of highschool due to covid, about 3-4 months of spending time with my boyfriend, and lost my father and couldn’t even see him in his last moments. This virus takes our time and our mental wellbeing. Who knows how many experiences of high school I’ve missed, how many dates, a hug from my dad, etc. I am ready for this to be over. I want to be able to go somewhere with my family without a mask. I want to not notice every single time someone touches something or coughs into their hand. I want to not be worried when I hear a cough. I want to not be scared that my family will catch covid and die.

So, how does one stay sane during the pandemic? Lots of sleep, snuggles from dogs, hyperfixations, and staying as social as you can possibly handle. Do not isolate yourself, it will make matters worse. I’m not saying go out to coachella with no mask with your friends and put yourself in danger, but text them. Call them. Go out to a movie with your mask on. Please keep your mask on so we can beat this virus to the ground. Another piece of advice, do not, I repeat do NOT let COVID-19 take away your life, your happiness. Go out once in a while. See your partner. Go to a restaurant. Have a sleepover. Doing things is not evil. Living your life is not evil. Just do not put yourself or others in danger by doing so. Get tested, wear your mask if needed, socially distance, get vaccinated, just be safe. Last but not least, get vaccinated. You’re not gonna be tracked, not going to lose fertility, etc. You will be safer and the people around you will be safer. If you’re worried about the tracking thing though, you’re already tracked all the time with your phone. Sorry.

So, that’s what I’ve got to say. Live your life and be safe, and remember, other people are struggling too. You are not alone, please lean on one another during this time. Thanks for reading, if anyone is reading this.

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United States

Citizen

Hey, I’m a 16 y/o high school student. I’m here to tell you about my experiences in this pandemic. And mannn I’d just describe this whole pandemic in one word- crusty loll. These past couple years been tough man. Not just because of lockdown and so much change, but also so much going on in my personal life as well; Just like most of us. The pandemic just makes those things 10x harder to deal with. Having most of my highschool experience taken away from me has been rough too. It’s not fun to be home all the time and just be isolated and unproductive, it can really weigh on you. But I’m here to tell you you’re not alone in this at all, even though It’s been nothing but lonely, so many people can relate to you and me. Over the pandemic, I’ve had a looot of time to self reflect and find some better ways to cope with everything. I realized developing healthy hobbies/coping skills would benefit me in a lot of ways. I’ve gotten really into playing sports and exercise, not only is it good for the body, but also the mind. Lots of days I don't feel like getting up and doing that, but honestly, i've learned that if you Just do it without thinking about it, you wont regret it and you will feel good afterwards. I know it's hard but doing slight productive activities can really bring you out of an unmotivated, depressed mood; and make you feel inspired enough to be productive in other ways too. A little motivation goes a long way, the power is within you to find it, and use it to its full potential! P.S. The activity doesnt have to be exercise, it can be anything from doing your makeup, drawing, listening to music, playing a sport, going for a walk, cooking food, ect. Anything you enjoy!! I hope I helped manifest A positive message into your life as an individual, if you took the time to read this loll. Stay safe, I Love You All! <3<3

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USA

Citizen

I'm a highschool student in a small town on the west coast. My experience in the pandemic was not how I thought it was gonna be. It was fun for the first few weeks after that it all went downhill. I started having to be cautious with being around people and getting used to having to stay home and not see people's faces. After being stuck in the house for so long I've just gotten used to the fact that I like being alone most of the time. I got depressed and started shutting people out. I started to fail my classes in online school cause I just didn't have the energy to get up and do something. I started to become distant with people that I loved being around and just accepted the fact that maybe I should continue to distance myself. My advice is to try to keep in contact with the people you love and dont push them away because you'll regret it later, don't get behind on school either you'll also regret it but just believe in yourself and be positive.

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USA

Citizen

I am a junior in highschool in a small town on the west coast. My experience in quarantine was not so good, I thought it was going to be like an extra summer break and it definitely was not that lmao. I ended up dropping everyone from freshman year so I really had no friends except one, and even then we didn't hang out much. I thought the alone time would've been cool but it eventually got super lonely, I lost motivation to do anything. I went into a depression and spent most of the days in my dark room lol. I didn't do any of my school work and I fell way behind, I didn't leave the house and i didnt talk to anyone, I spent most of my time watching anime and really just disconnected from the real world. My advice would be to make sure you keep in contact with your friends and to leave the house as much as you can even if it's just to store. I also think you should just make sure you're taking care of yourself. Thats all ive got lmao i wouldn't change anything though cause its helped make me who I am.

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USA

Citizen

Hello, I'm a junior in high school and surprisingly I'm graduating this year. If I keep up my grades but it hasn't been too much of a challenge to have good grades my teachers are good teachers and I go to a good school and I want to come to school every day. I miss some days but keep up on my grades.

Throughout this covid thing, there have been hard times for me and easy times. When the first lockdown hit I was trying online school for the first time and I liked it. I could lay down in bed and attend school while I watched a streamer on Twitch. I was doing my school work and thought I would be in classes for what felt like 2 hours. After the first week of online school, I was playing games like warzone and my grades were falling. I had no motivation to go But I was just staying in my room and eating. I was gaining weight. I lived in a little town far from family and friends. I was getting depressed. So I needed to find a way to get out and exercise so my Dad got me a longboard with my money I've saved up and I was riding around for around 2 hours a day some day and that gave me something to do that was helping me lose weight and clearing my mind.

My advice is when you're going through a hard time or don't have motivation push yourself to get out and do something. Find a hobby or something that you can have time for yourself and improve yourself that you have fun doing.

If you did read things, thank you for taking the time to read about me and my experiences and hopefully good advice.

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uk

Citizen

I'm 16, I was told that was a milestone when I was younger. I thought I would have a big group of friends and have a big party, and I would laugh carefree. It's too bad I haven't felt like that in years, I remember it fondly. I'm exhausted, why? If only I had the answer. I used to be eccentric, almost whimsical, I remember it vividly. The laughing, the dancing in the street in the rain, the climbing on the roof everytime i got a chance, the getting lost in the woods and laughing as I trip narrowly avoiding a concussion, the painting, the glassblowing, the drawing, the skateboarding, the hobbies, the endless chatter when around anybody in a social enviorment. Spending every countless moment with friends, exploring the wildernest lurking behind our neighborhood. Picnics deep in the trees, sun bathing. The snowstorm sledding and snowball fights, smiling at my bruised legs for weeks afterward. The energy to just do something. It's long gone. I'm supposed to give advice, but what advice can I give if I havent figured anything out yet? I think the meaning of life is to experience, good and bad. The best day of your life, the worst day and everything in between, before, and after. But how can I if I can't even bring myself to experience anything at all?

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the united states

Citizen

I’m a student from the United States and my experience within the last two years in the pandemic have been character building to say the least. There have been a lot of positives and a lot of negatives and I’m sure most people can say the same, although certain people/places have been affected more than others, this pandemic has definitely affected everybody in some form. The first lockdown started shortly after my birthday and I had no issue with it for the first half of it, but being inside for so long will definitely take its toll on you over time. The lack of socialization was driving me crazy and I felt legitimately deprived of it. A whole year of CDL (Comprehensive Distance Learning) wasn’t fun either, all of the time spent coexisting with people's profile pictures in a chat lobby could have been spent forming new bonds with people, making new memories, etc. Once again I didn’t mind it at all for the first half but after a while, I got tired of it and realized how much I did not like it. My advice to anybody who’s in lockdown or is isolated for any reason would be to spend as much time as possible focusing on your gratitudes and try to build healthy routines for yourself because those small healthy routines will benefit you in the long term or even the short term. Especially if you’re an overthinker like I am, the brain can’t be anxious and grateful at the same time so just slowing down and realizing all of the great things in my life has definitely helped me out a lot and I’m positive it can help others out too. Being isolated is never easy but there’s always ways you can distract yourself from it and make it easier for yourself.

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the united states

Essential Worker

this pandemic has been hard on everyone, some people more than others. For me I was somebody who went through loss of friends, a special pet of mine, and a loss of myself, throughout the pandemic I went through many different clothes, many hair colors and styles, and many relationships, all of these have shaped me to be the person I am now, while the pandemic is still happening 2 years later, I can say I am finally content with who I am and the life I have, the pandemic wasn't a positive experience, but it was life changing, and for me personally it was for the better; When school started up again is when I really started to find myself, it still was a very lonely time only having 2 classes a day with 3-4 students in the classes I had, and not much conversation. But I found a great school with great people which finally opened me up to many opportunities now and in the future. I hope everyone can find the positives from this experience, stay safe

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the united states

Citizen

Life has been a rollercoaster since covid started, stuff has gone very good and stuff has gone very bad, and being inside constantly has totally driven me crazy at times. I had very low and out-of-character moments and a lot of shitty situations occurred. In my experience, the key to happiness is gratitude, even if it is temporary. Right now stuff is going good and I am happy and hopefully, it will stay that way. Worrying about the future can take away from the joy that is right in front of you. People say it isn't good to find happiness in another person but it definitely helps.

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the united states

Essential Worker

be safe have fun

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ZImbabwe

Citizen

Look at the sky tonight, all of those stars have a reason <3

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North America

Citizen

Yeoo im in school right now, just a regular depressed junior in high school. I just wanna say in the words of polo g, "everybody go through something its all about perseverance". Idk that line keeps me going sometimes. I love you all <3 - random 16 y/o girl .

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USA

Essential Worker

Be and keep strong and courageous always 👍👍😃☀️

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Israel

Essential Worker

חזק ואמץ ממש תודה רבה לאל ממש

טוב לי ממש

תודה רבה לאל ממש

תודה רבה להקב'ה ממש

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France

Essential Worker

Sois et restes fort et courageux 👍👍😃☀️

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United States

Citizen

Hello,

 

this is my letter to the world... recently I've been struggling with finding my peace. Schools beaten me down, my everyday life at home has progressivly gotten worse, I miss how life use to be before the pandemic. lately I find myself dwelling over the past and becoming quite frustrated with inner thoughts. I lost all my friends and now sit in my room alone watching trash pile up while my boyfriend plays video games or falls asleep. I miss human touch. I miss laughing and going on road trips. I find myself coming for my boyfriends throat as we begin to argue more often due to the unwanted space between us. Life has been hard since the pandemic, everyone knows this. I for one never got to work I've only been a full time student and now I only have a class this semster. I hate it here. I wish I had someone to talk to to vent my problems and To create a bond with. I miss humans. My cat passed away at the peak of the pandemic so I'm more alone than ever cooped up in my room. im missing out on a whole life because of this. I wish I knew more people. lifes pretty tough when you're rocking it alone

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Israel

Essential Worker

חזק ואמץ ממש תודה רבה לאל ממש 👍👍😃☀️🙂😊

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USA

Essential Worker

Keep smiling!

 

Be strong and courageous always!

 

☺️👍👍☀️😃

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France

Essential Worker

Soyez fort et courageux grandement!

Keep smiling 👍👍☀️🙂😃

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united states

Citizen

I'm here to write about finding my first love in quarantine. I met her right before school started again and we were both in online school. We practically spent all of our quarantine together and quickly became closer at the start of 2021. I knew I was attracted to her but I didn't know I loved her. We made friends together and left them together. I ditched everyone for her and she didn't even ask me to. I did because I thought we were just like best friends. I didn't even realize I had feelings for her. Even when she pissed me off she made me happy. I loved everything about her. Her personality, her voice, the things she did. She's so complex and hard to understand but I didn't, and don't, mind that. I would spend hours picking apart her brain to know as much as I can about her if I had the opportunity. Slowly but surely, I'd stay up till midnight almost every summer night to talk to her on the phone. The little things she did to show her love for me just drew me in more. Waking up each morning to practically confess over and over again made me obsessed with her. I would kill to spend every waking moment talking to her. She's my whole world and I couldn't have it any other way. I know it may seem like infatuation, but even when the butterflies fade and blush on my cheeks goes away, I still have intense feelings for her. I don't even know exactly what drew me in so much but I'm so grateful she's in my life. Where I would be right now without her? I have no idea.

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United States

Citizen

When I was younger I never understood those girls who cried inconsolably after a breakup, I never understood that pain caused by a “heartbreak”. That was until it happened to me. That type of pain is hard to describe, it just feels like a hole in your chest, like a void in your heart. It’s hard to breathe and the tears just keep coming, it’s a emotional pain. It feels like you’re just stuck, no matter how hard you try to move you can’t. Any little thing can remind you of that person and the tears just start flowing and your heart starts hurting. “It hurts”, “he hurt me”, “it hurts too much I can’t”, “I can’t breathe”. I don’t remember how many times I repeated those phrases, but that’s all I could say. And talking about being hurt only made it hurt even worse. When you’re really in love a heartbreak is the worst type of pain, and if feels like that pain is never going to go away but that’s not true. Like I said I speak from experience, I thought the hurt would never go away but it does with time. I finally understand the phrase that says “Time heals all wounds”. It took me two years to finally realize that I was finally okay, that I wasn’t hurting anymore. Time slowly creeps up on you, time is consistent. Slowly but surely you’re hurting will fade and you’ll eventually start to heal. Don’t get me wrong everyone deals with a heartbreak differently, everyone deals with their hurting and pain differently, everyone heals differently. It was hard for me but I did it, time went by and little by little I started noticing the things that reminded me of him didn’t make me cry anymore, the songs we dedicated to each other or songs we listened to together didn’t make my heart break anymore and eventually the tears stopped and I could finally breathe again. When I think about that person and what happened to us I don’t cry and my heart doesn’t hurt, I just smile and breathe. The pain is gone, I’m finally okay. It took me a couple of years to finally be okay and to realize my worth but I did it. Am I ready to find love again, no. My pain is gone but I need to love myself first and be okay with myself before I start loving someone else. All that matters is that I can sleep at night and smile. I now know that everthing happens for a reason.

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Philippines

Citizen

Hey, it's me again

 

It's 1am, and i really can't sleep again, and there's a lot of heavy things i carry that i cant tell to anyone,, ig i could only trust here are the strangers on the internet that'd read this once in their lifetime, or even never.

 

I saw on tiktom a video of baguio, it's a cool place and j consider this as one of my favorite places in the country, ig it jusg brings comfort and freedom to me, thats why i love it somuch. Then now, i imagine me and my comfort person being there, juts the two of us, and,, i just see it so vivid and,, romantic. I never like them but, just being with them makes me feel safe and secure. I dont know why or how but i just appreciated their presence more today than then, and i love learning the small details of their favorites, some similarities that we have, taste of music, food, even personality.

 

Yeah,, i'm not totally into them, but just seeing them makes me feel, like home. no judgements, negativities, just pure comfort,,

 

oh well this is a weird phase for myself, maybe im just attracted to those who are near to me rn, mayne after this pandemic i wont rlly think of it as immense as of now, but now i thank the heavens for making me feel something that isn't as hurtful as love, but as alive and bring sparks to me like,,, love at first sight? Soulmate things, idk its far from that,, ok bye noww thanks again for,.reading ig :))

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Wales

Healthcare Worker

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/av/uk-57894885

 

My friends, who are vulnerable, no one thinks of them, and still after so many lockdowns, the public acting irresponsible, is saddening, frustrating, and brings on anger.

 

Why do the British keep doing the same thing over and over again, when are they going to learn?

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Philippines

Citizen

I can't sleep

It's 4am and I can't stop thinking about,, them. and myself, and a lot of shit,, i just can't stop thinking

 

I've always pushed myself away from having romantic feelings with anyone since,, i finallt let go of my,, first love ig? i still dont know why he means so much to me, but yeah, he's in a happier place and i don't want to intervene now.

 

There's this another man that,, I am "attracted"ig,, i dont know if it's directly to him, or the image he's just holding, it seems so,,, perfect. It's weird.

 

This situation,, in general,, is fucking weird. . .

 

Y'know that shit u do that u imagine u and ur crush doing lovey-dovey romantic things,, yrah i do that sometimes with,, him. it's so,, bizarre, yet i see that it's a possibility.

 

Man i'm weird

 

Anyways,, for me,, im trying also to improve my eating habits, exercising, that shit. I thought there really aint progress, but there really is,, i just have to stay committed,, which is challenging for me. ig i'll rrach that milestone too someday,,

 

Neways ig thats all i can think of since a stranger,, or strangers,, will read this.

 

To all in the website here, keep moving forward, we're here fpr each other, im happy there's rhis kind of website to express myself freely.

 

Maybe i'll come back here 2morrow, if i can't sleep again. Gmorning.

 

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kuwait

Citizen

If you're reading this then it's too late... no no I'm just messing around. Let me introduce myself, my name's Afnan, and I live in Kuwait City. I know this prompt is supposed to be about Covid, but that's such a depressing topic as you might know. Over here it isn't the worst, but the situation can definitely use a helping hand. I pray every night to Allah (SWT) that in the end all will be well and we get out of this pandemic healthy and happy. For all the people and souls we lost during this time, may they rest in peace, and one day shall we see them again. But for now, live your life! Have fun! Do what many don't have the chance or courage to do (safely of course ;)) And if there's any time you feel helpless or that the universe is against in some way or another, know that there is always, always, ALWAYS a light at the end of the tunnel. You just have to keep going. Anyways...if you wanna follow me on Instagram it's @afnan.alsalem (and I'm 16 so don't think of doing anything weird <3)

 

Thank you so so much if you read my letter and I hope you text me and tell me about it!

 

-A

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France

Essential Worker

Hey! Vous êtes formidables, merci pour tout et que D.ieu vous bénisse et vous protège grandement! Que des bonnes nouvelles et incroyables délivrances dans toutes vos vies, par la grâce de D.ieu! 👍👍😃

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France

Essential Worker

Remember! You are STRONG and COURAGEOUS! 👍👍😃

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France

Essential Worker

Courage, courage, courage, vous êtes des belles personnes, des belles lumières, plein d'amour de bien, et de bonté pour votre prochain ! Continuez, courage, soyez et restez forts et courageux ! Pensez bien tout ira bien, car tout va déjà bien ! Une bonne pensée emmène à une bonne action ! Souriez, gardez le sourire, dansez, tapez des mains, pleurez de joie et priez ! Dites des paroles d'encouragements et de renforcements ! Une bonne action entraîne une autre bonne action, vous renforce et vous protège, égaye votre joli cœur et tendre, permet à d'autres d'en faire ... à l'infini ! Easy, isn't it! Que D.ieu vous bénisse et vous protège! Que des belles et incroyables nouvelles et délivrances dans tous vos domaines ! Belle et douce journée dans vos cœurs ensoleillés ! Bon courage 😃☀️

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England

Citizen

I’m stuck in a bloody psych ward what even is this my life is such a joke in the past 2 months I’ve been restrained, injected in the glutes, seen and heard lots of distressing things and I’m just so tired

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United States

Citizen

Covid allowed me to finally see how existentially lonely I am. I lost all of my capability to socialize and all of my friends. I don't talk to anyone but my family occasionally but I don't have any strong bonds with anyone. I did have a few online friends for a while but inevitably, I lost them as well. What hurts is that they don't even seem to care that we aren't friends anymore. Everything sucks. Nothing appeals to me anymore and I find myself in a cycle of loneliness and boredom. I went through the fright of seeing my sister's health decline due to covid. She has recovered, fortunately, but It's sad that I have to go through that anyway. I haven't been outside for a long time or socialized overall. I miss my old self. Why can't I go back? I just wish I had someone like I used to.

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Egypt

Healthcare Worker

It is bad

What happen to the world

I miss these days ,every one was happy and I was enjoying with love and play

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United Kingdom

Citizen

I’m struggling here with family at home, wishing to die...

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England

Healthcare Worker

I’ve really struggled during this lockdown. My mental health has deteriorated so much to the point of attempting to take my own life multiple times. Services are so low and underfunded whilst being stretched to their limits i was sent home after each attempt because they couldn’t get me the help. However, i’m learning everyday to be positive and try to better my health physically and mentally :)

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uk

Citizen

I was alone before the lockdown, I still am.

 

Just remember it is not ONLY old people who feel loneliness.

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United Kingdom

Citizen

Generally I am coping well with the pandemic. I have worked throughout as I can work from home and I have my own house with a basement where I can work on my upcycling hobby. I am very lucky in that respect. I live with my husband and daughter so I am never alone.

 

The three of us contracted Covid in early April. My husband is in construction so he had to continue working when England first went into lockdown. One day he was working with a man who didn't feel well. He was rushed to hospital and never came back. A week later my husband got ill and a week after that my daughter and I got ill. When my husband first got ill we followed the guidance to isolate him in one room but that soon fell by the wayside because he was too ill to get up so we had to do everything for him.

 

He spent a week lying on the floor of the bedroom because he couldn't even get in and out of bed. He needed the cold and hardness of the floor. His duvet was on one minute and off the next, his breathing was shallow one minute and rasping the next. He was burning with fever one minute and shivering with cold the next. At one point, around five days in, I called the NHS helpline to order an ambulance to take him to hospital because his breathing was so bad. The woman on the phone asked, 'Is he breathing?' and I said, 'To a fashion'. Her reply was, 'Then keep him at home and call if he stops breathing'.

 

I spent five nights awake even though I was ill myself, listening to him breathe so that if he stopped, even for a few seconds, I could immediately call the NHS and get him to hospital. I felt helpless and overwhelmed because I am not a medical person, how was I supposed to know the exact moment to call an ambulance?

 

My mind still plays that scene over and over and 10 months later I still can't sleep unless I have listened to him breathe for an hour. I tell him that I can't get to sleep for other reasons, but that's the reason. I need to know he's breathing properly before I can even think of going to sleep. I think I might do that every night for the rest of our lives together.

 

The virus took 8 weeks of our lives in total. It was that long before we could face the day with any sense of being well. My husband and I were nearly two stone lighter because we both lost our sense of taste and smell. I had a sweet tooth before getting the virus and loved chocolate and cheese. I can't eat sugar now, it leaves a metallic taste behind and I can take or leave chocolate and cheese. We all had different symptoms so the virus was very different to anything else we had ever had. It seemed to be personal, to target our weak spots. It has left the three of us with different long lasting symptoms. My husband gets breathless, my daughter has days of extreme fatigue and I have a cough that comes and goes. We are not the same people we were, not physically or mentally. We all have a different outlook on life, mainly positive but we know how fleeting and fragile it is. We are not as afraid to face death as we feel we looked it in the face and lived to tell the tale.

 

Our other daughter and our oldest grandson were ill with the Kent variant. My daughter is 35 but spent six weeks wheezing like a 90 year old. She seems to be breathing better now but it took its toll on her. She has also lost weight because she lost her sense of smell and taste. My grandson is 10 and was only ill for a few days. His Dad got ill on my grandson's 10th birthday. He has asthma so he was very ill but he recovered quicker than my daughter who has no underlying conditions.

 

I lost my auntie at the same time as having the virus and because I had symptoms for most of the last 10 weeks of her life, I only got to see her for an hour in total. I had looked after her for 10 years and seen her 2-4 times every week over that time and I wasn't there at the end. I will always feel guilty about that even though I know it wasn't my fault. I feel like I missed out on her and she died feeling that I didn't care. She was 94 and was one of the 25,000 or so people who were moved from hospital into care homes with suspected Covid. She was never tested and Covid wasn't on her death certificate but it is mentioned on three reports written by hospital doctors and a doctor who visited her in the care home. She died without any family with her, as did everybody else who has died during the pandemic.

 

My father died in February 2019 and as a write this, my mother waits, desperate to join him. She lives in New Zealand with my sister and today, my husband and I should have been on a flight to go and see her. New Zealand made that impossible when they found three cases of coronavirus in the community two weeks ago. Their Government decided to dramatically cut the number of people entering New Zealand and our flight was cancelled with all flights suspended until the end of May and no information about flights after that. Our tickets are being held for up to 18 months and with restrictions lifting in the UK and a range of vaccines being available, it is likely that we might be able to go by the summer. My mother is so ill now that it is very unlikely she will love that long. She doesn't want to so my sister and I have decided to give her certainty and say that I can't go. The stress of uncertainty makes her even more ill.

 

So, how am I coping with the pandemic?

 

My life has generally been ok. Financially we are better off as we have both worked. My husband was on furlough for four months but he has worked through most of it. My family got the virus and survived which I am incredibly thankful for.

 

But...

 

Death has been a constant companion and I haven't been able to see my loved ones in their final days, haven't been able to say goodbye. That sits heavy on me and clouds every day. It will continue to cloud every day for a long time. It is not the natural order of things. When people get ill family rally around, taking it in turns to sit with the person, to hold their hand, to tell them it's ok. Taking that away from the collective experience of humanity across the world will have an impact we haven't even thought of yet. Nobody who has lived through this experience will forget it. The world has shared an event that will change it forever. We just don't know how yet.

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UK

Healthcare Worker

I am concerned to notice rising intolerance & prejudice during this difficult time of pandemic. There is increase racism, numerous complaints ( true & falsified) by hospital staff ( clinical & non-clinical) against black & Asian clinicians. London publication headline “ THERE ARE 2 PANDEMICS HAPPENING IN UK - COVID & RACISM”. There is little support for people subjected to domestic abuse during lockdown. To reduce the impact of the pandemic, what we need is the opposite ie unity, tolerance & kindness. A lot of doctors are actively planning to retire early or returning to India & East Europe.

 

we need to oppose all kinds of prejudices eg sexism, racism, anti-semitism, Islamophobia, nazism Etc. We need more awareness of Unconscious/ Implicit bias.

 

we can rebuild a prosperous future in a short period if we work together using the plethora of innovation developing so fast.

 

kind regards

 

a UK Medical doctor

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United Kingdom

Citizen

I am feeling so depressed. I thought I had gotten over my depression and worked to get better but with the pandemic it all came crashing back down and I don’t know how to stop it.

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England

Citizen

Covid has been a really hard time, especially whilst doing A levels, there’s little to no support and the situation concerning exams is so unknown and keeps getting delayed.

The pressure put on us to achieve high grades when we’ve missed half the year is so unreasonable.

My mental health has declined rapidly I’ve always had issues but I’ve recently had to call my doctors and organise some help.

I feel like students are misunderstood a repeatedly told we are just making excuses for not working yet I’m working so hard and feel completely behind and alone

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UK

Citizen

It's not fair. These were supposed to be the best years of my life. It's not fair.

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UK

Citizen

Hi there,

It's a crappy situation this. And to be honest, I'm not sure how to adequately talk about it all. Everyone has experienced something or is going through something different. I'm not going to sit here and tell you that Covid will be gone tomorrow, or that everything will be back to normal by next week, because I don't know that it will. Nobody knows that.

But I do know, that no matter how hard it gets, if you've lost someone, lost your job, your friends or your family... you will always have yourself.

It's hard sometimes, but remember that you are worthy of care and support and love, from yourself and others. That you are here today is amazing, and I' m grateful that you are. I know its stressful, and full of a lot of sadness, I'm going through that myself. But it will get better. Focus on the little things that make you happy, and remember that its not forever. You are loved, and it will get better.

 

Whatever you are going through, I am sorry.

You are not alone in this xx

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England

Citizen

Bored. Just plain bored as I can't see my friends and Netflix can only be so entertaining. So I found a game called Lost Land and there's six parts to it, so hopefully that should keep be entertained in the mean time.

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